1:08 P.M.

Sean came over last night.  Yep it happened.  But I just kept thinking to myself that I wasn’t as excited as I could or should have been.  Oh well, can’t go back now.  And when he was in the shower, I called Henry.  I really don’t know what’s wrong with me either.  Henry was asleep but called me back later.  Ghost Story had a show last night and the band got dollar drinks so we went a wee-bit overboard.  (A lot.)  I ordered the book at work that has how to get into the Janus Society, etc.

August 13 food:

  • 3 Nestles Crunch ice cream nuggets
  • chocolate donuts
  • lowfat milk
  • gum

Rubbers are the most unromantic and yucky things. They destroy a moment, the noise is annoying, and they feel like plastic.  I want a car damn it.

People I’ve kissed:

  • Chris Sundberg
  • Wyn Scott
  • Terrence
  • James
  • Jason Bornstein
  • Nicole Smith
  • Marisol
  • Chris Higgins
  • Henry Valenzuela
  • Nathan
  • Jake
  • Jeremy Garbina
  • Robbie Sykoski
  • Mike
  • Erica Lenart
  • Amy Blankenfeld
  • Sally Hines
  • Erin
  • Rachel Eddins
  • Dan Higgins
  • Sean Wike
  • Joe
  • Shannon Fitzsimmons
  • Abel

I know there are more but I’ll add them as I think of ‘em.  I want a car so I don’t have to sit around my house being bored all the time.  But I don’t see it happening real soon ’cause I have no money.  300 dollars won’t buy me much of a car.  I only need about 700 more – that’ll be another 4 months at least.  Then there’s insurance, etc.  Why does my hair have to fall out so much?  It’s quite annoying.  I’m not going to shower before I go to work.  Then afterwords I’m coming home and going to sleep.  Is it so wrong for me to want to have sex with Henry?  Even though from what he’s demonstrated in person, I doubt if he’ll be very good.  I’m very tired of this fucking gardener.  I hate the loud fucking equipment that is unnecessary.  I wish I knew what I want to do when I grow up.

8:31 P.M.

No talkin;


All action

— “Ocean Size,” Nothing’s Shocking, Jane’s Addiction

August 14 food:

  • Chocolate donuts
  • milk
  • 3 slices cheese
  • Hagen Daaz bar
  • In-N-Out burger
  • French fries
  • Lite Cool Whip
  • sunflower seeds