7:34P.M.
Henry said he’d come over tonight but who knows. I’ve been trying to call him at work but he phone’s been busy and now I finally got through and some girl answered. Could have been anyone but no one I wanted to talk to. He probably won’t call at all tonight and I don’t have any other night free ’cause I start school tomorrow night. And he makes me so mad. To think I was going to call to apologize for nagging all the time about him being a flake. And I’m still hopeful, dammit. I imagine what it’ll be like when he’s here. How it will feel to touch him and kiss him and hold him. Why do I let this happen? I just want to surrender everything to him and he doesn’t even want it.
